Saturday, 12 May 2007
my life and people around me
regretfully, i couldnt make it on the previous group meeting as i have to settle with my own problems. sum yee, i hope that you dont mind at all. i am writing here to tell you that i am very glad that i have met you here in aberdeen. i came here all alone, not knowing much to do until i attended the cell group. and from there, my contacts just blossom to what it is now. the cell group that you and your siblings set up, not only enlighten my friday night, but also a weekly break from my hectic study life schedule. ultimately, i learnt alot from the meeting and i hope to apply it in my everyday life and people around me. i am touched that you prayed for everyone, people around you or other malaysian students who are coming abroad, hoping that they are free from any problem. it is sad to hear that you are leaving aberdeen this wednesday. you will surely be missed in the future cell group meeting. i wish you success in your future endeavour in durham, and i hope we could meet someday..
final exam ^_^
-: 9 days away from my very final paper..
to think of it, i had been studying for more than 14 years yet it seems like yesterday. i am one step closer to the working environment in less than 2 months. reminds me back during the old days, i used to sleep and wake up at anytime, i used to ask myself if i will ever miss my student life despite my disfavours in attending morning lectures, non-stop assignments, projects and exams.... yes i will, and i will definitely miss it.
on the positive side, i should be very lucky to be able to study until now while others couldn't make it through, be it financially or health reason, or do not have the opportunity to study abroad. i am lucky enough to be given this opportunity and i shouldnt ask for more. mum, dad, sis and bro, i am very thankful for your continuous effort in supporting me all the way financially and mentally. despite of my frustration every single time exam's approaching, you will always ask me to take it easy and have the confidence in me, this is the strength i need to strive for excellent. and i hope that i will make you proud this coming convocation.
and to all my friends whom will be sitting for this final, let's do our very best, let us end this with a smile...
to think of it, i had been studying for more than 14 years yet it seems like yesterday. i am one step closer to the working environment in less than 2 months. reminds me back during the old days, i used to sleep and wake up at anytime, i used to ask myself if i will ever miss my student life despite my disfavours in attending morning lectures, non-stop assignments, projects and exams.... yes i will, and i will definitely miss it.
on the positive side, i should be very lucky to be able to study until now while others couldn't make it through, be it financially or health reason, or do not have the opportunity to study abroad. i am lucky enough to be given this opportunity and i shouldnt ask for more. mum, dad, sis and bro, i am very thankful for your continuous effort in supporting me all the way financially and mentally. despite of my frustration every single time exam's approaching, you will always ask me to take it easy and have the confidence in me, this is the strength i need to strive for excellent. and i hope that i will make you proud this coming convocation.
and to all my friends whom will be sitting for this final, let's do our very best, let us end this with a smile...
Tuesday, 1 May 2007
happy birthday mum :)
-: i tribute this post to my lovely mother in conjunction with her birthday...
invariably 30 april would pop up in my head, i would always panicked, thinking that me and my siblings must do something as a repay of what she had sacrifice for us. in fact, it could never be paid, the debt is always there. it is always hard to figure what to do for mum's birthday. i recalled, 13 years ago, i would certainly buy her something that i would enjoy playing instead of her, hoping that she will give me eventually. and yes she did it. how childish i was....
9 years ago, i will be this little good boy who do all the house chores and keep the house tidy. mum and i will shopped for groceries and stock up the fridge.
5 years ago, we celebrated her birthday in grandpa's house during daytime, and went out for dinner at nice restaurant.
3 years ago, we brought her dining in a hotel, bought mum her favourite black forest cake and celebrated with uncles and aunts, and blow the candles with younger children...
today, mum called me and reminds me of her birthday. i had totally forgotten. all i did was explaining how busy i was with exams and projects. she accepted it happily as always. a happy go lucky mum. optimistic mother. i could lied the whole world but not myself. yes, i lied. i remembered i had planned it since two and half months ago to deliver a special gift to her door step. i saved by eating pasta most of the time. i had a tremendously bad week and completely forgotten about this important event. i am completely out of focus. i felt so sorry for her. i am so useless and irresponsible. i had never imagine myself to be so hopeless nowadays, as a friend, a student, a housemate, a couple and as her child, as the youngest in the family. regretful. i hope is never too late, happy birthday mum. and i love you. i never say this on the phone, it sounded so weird but i meant it from my heart.
pic taken @10 September 2005
invariably 30 april would pop up in my head, i would always panicked, thinking that me and my siblings must do something as a repay of what she had sacrifice for us. in fact, it could never be paid, the debt is always there. it is always hard to figure what to do for mum's birthday. i recalled, 13 years ago, i would certainly buy her something that i would enjoy playing instead of her, hoping that she will give me eventually. and yes she did it. how childish i was....
9 years ago, i will be this little good boy who do all the house chores and keep the house tidy. mum and i will shopped for groceries and stock up the fridge.
5 years ago, we celebrated her birthday in grandpa's house during daytime, and went out for dinner at nice restaurant.
3 years ago, we brought her dining in a hotel, bought mum her favourite black forest cake and celebrated with uncles and aunts, and blow the candles with younger children...
today, mum called me and reminds me of her birthday. i had totally forgotten. all i did was explaining how busy i was with exams and projects. she accepted it happily as always. a happy go lucky mum. optimistic mother. i could lied the whole world but not myself. yes, i lied. i remembered i had planned it since two and half months ago to deliver a special gift to her door step. i saved by eating pasta most of the time. i had a tremendously bad week and completely forgotten about this important event. i am completely out of focus. i felt so sorry for her. i am so useless and irresponsible. i had never imagine myself to be so hopeless nowadays, as a friend, a student, a housemate, a couple and as her child, as the youngest in the family. regretful. i hope is never too late, happy birthday mum. and i love you. i never say this on the phone, it sounded so weird but i meant it from my heart.
pic taken @10 September 2005
