invariably 30 april would pop up in my head, i would always panicked, thinking that me and my siblings must do something as a repay of what she had sacrifice for us. in fact, it could never be paid, the debt is always there. it is always hard to figure what to do for mum's birthday. i recalled, 13 years ago, i would certainly buy her something that i would enjoy playing instead of her, hoping that she will give me eventually. and yes she did it. how childish i was....
9 years ago, i will be this little good boy who do all the house chores and keep the house tidy. mum and i will shopped for groceries and stock up the fridge.
5 years ago, we celebrated her birthday in grandpa's house during daytime, and went out for dinner at nice restaurant.
3 years ago, we brought her dining in a hotel, bought mum her favourite black forest cake and celebrated with uncles and aunts, and blow the candles with younger children...
today, mum called me and reminds me of her birthday. i had totally forgotten. all i did was explaining how busy i was with exams and projects. she accepted it happily as always. a happy go lucky mum. optimistic mother. i could lied the whole world but not myself. yes, i lied. i remembered i had planned it since two and half months ago to deliver a special gift to her door step. i saved by eating pasta most of the time. i had a tremendously bad week and completely forgotten about this important event. i am completely out of focus. i felt so sorry for her. i am so useless and irresponsible. i had never imagine myself to be so hopeless nowadays, as a friend, a student, a housemate, a couple and as her child, as the youngest in the family. regretful. i hope is never too late, happy birthday mum. and i love you. i never say this on the phone, it sounded so weird but i meant it from my heart.
pic taken @10 September 2005
4 comments:
Hi Bro, don't worry, mum won't be angry with you although you had forgotten about her birthday, because you are away and you might be busy especially this few months.
Yes I do agree that we had a happy go lucky mum, but not always optimistic.... Didn't really celebrate her birthday as she was in Sabah with uncle Wai Choong and family.
Well you can always make up, as Mother's Day is coming. Call her up and wish her Happy Mother's Day (13/05/07).
Nothing much for me to add here as you have already written it all. Just wish you all the best there and we MISS YOU.
LUV,
Sis
hey hey...
i didnt expect to see you here sis. what a surprise. yeap, 13/05. u guys better come up with a good plan as well since didnt really celebrate her birthday. :) take care then, all the best!
wei 13 MAY 2007! dont forget to wish ur MOM hahahaha
i already wish boy. how can i ever forget again. not second time.
thanks for reminding anyway. your alarm is 1 hour late. hehe :)
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