'colours'

-: white is what i am looking for, not red, not pink....

during my stay in aberdeen, fortunate or vise versa, i met this girl, *Mel* on the 30th august 06. her impression to me was a happy go lucky and loves to party girl. knowing her better, deep inside i found that there is this maturity lies in her, the way she looks at things and words of advise that is. amazed, i hv never thought of breaking up as before, i am glad to proceed even closer than 'friends' boundary, a much more intimate relationship.

moments of ups and downs, the first break up occured due to misunderstanding. yes, it was solely my fault. how i wish the first break doesnt occur, our relationship should be sailing smoothly. i never gave up. i decided to start from the beginning. stubborn i am. during that period, little did i know, i had fall for you very very slowly..

i knew it would never be an easy journey. i have done everything and hope to be appreciated not now, but one day. if red is a color of love, i would describe *Mel* as white. I felt all its presence, all the colors that blend together which form this pure white. all ups and downs. bitter sweet... maybe i didnt tell you, i am so happy when we get back together, the happiest in my entire life. I never expected this moment to be too short, too shame to be mentioned. u know what i have done for you. more than words could describe. i have failed to express how you trully meant to me. i have no intention to say more. cant i even leave just one slice of mark in ur heart? am i that lousy?

'is so hard to forget a person, why not impress her, touch her heart, let her know i still care, i am always there'. thats what i wanted to show you if i were given one more chance to prove. yet, u turn me completely down with another news. i have given you a pair of wings, but you never return..